new find

heard this quote today and for some reason it stuck.

"to be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting" - e.e.cummings

patience

patience is a virtue. but not for me. i am probably the most impatient person alive (exaggeration yes. but maybe true?) i am not really sure why i lack the ability to be patient, but i feel like as i get older i need to try and develop this trait. i'd like to blame it on my mother, because that's what i do about a lot of things, such as the fact that i worry about everything. however i do not think i learned it from her. i hate waiting around for things, being late, and letting things happen in their own time. being patient has come up a lot in my life recently with decisions of what classes to take for school, what i actually want to be if i ever grow up, will i ever get married (i know this is crazy to think, but in utah it comes up a lot, even if you are only nineteen), all those weird thoughts that go on in a girls brain. i want a crystal ball so i can see if what i want is going to be the right thing for me. not this whole waiting it out and "being patient". but i guess i am going to need to figure out how to manage my tendency to be impatient because time machines and crystal balls don't really exist. sad story.

independence day

so today is july 4th and i am shocked at how fast the summer has gone by. although i feel like it hasn't been much of a summer. the rain has thrown off everything which is kind of a bummer. i do love summer rain, but i also loved my tan that i had at the beginning of the summer. i feel like july is going to go by really quick, which has it's pros and cons. i am kind of pumped for a new school year. i miss all my dgs and miss studying??? (ahh. i really just said that.) but i think it is really i just miss being busy and feeling productive with my day. i kind of sort of love july. so i will just take it for what it's worth until august. then we will see how i feel about school. i can't wait for celebrating july 4th. i am in love with fireworks. they always put me in a good mood. i think it is because they remind me of disneyland. which i am also absolutely in love with.

sad day in hollywood

michael jackson, farrah fawcett, and ed mcmahon all died today. not gonna lie i am a little upset about it.

movie weekend

this last weekend i went to three different movies and i thoroughly enjoyed each of them. on friday i went to seventeen again with my good friend, jordan greer. and i can now say that i am the new member of loving zac efron. i am pretty sure i had my mouth open the entire time, just in awe at how cute he is. i remember when he was on summerland a longg time ago, he definitely didn't look like that haha. on saturday i went to the proposal with ryan reynolds and sandra bullock (also with jordan greer). it was so funny and cute and ryan reynolds isn't half that bad to look at either. then on sunday, (fathers day) i went with my dad and brother to see year one with jack black. hilarious. it's your typical jack black movie but it was really entertaining so i was set. next movie on my list transformers 2. tonight at 12:10. i will be sporting my transformers shirt and can't wait. so excited!

go greek!

so my new obsession this summer is the show greek. it's been on for a while but i started watching it more and more when i lived in the dg house and now i am completely hooked. i don't know what it is but i love it and wish that i sometimes could be a character in the show haha. i am in love with cappie as well. he is the new man of my dreams. and overall it's just a great show. simple as that.

too lateee

so i am lying in my bed. i can't sleep. story of my summer. for some reason i have the hardest time going to sleep before 2 in the am. currently i am watching zenon: the zequel. good memories of my days of wishing zenon was my best friend as we lived in outerspace with protozoa being the biggest thing next to the backstreet boys. i also am semi online shopping while i sit here in my bed. i know, dangerous. i wish i just had an endless amount of money for clothes. even though my closet is exploding from the excess amount of clothes i already have. maybe i will clean my closet tomorrow when i am sitting in my bed at 2:20 am......or not, it was a nice thought right?